friends

after i walked to my college only to know that no one is in class and the class is cancelled, i walked to his office again. i have been thinking real hard.

why do i feel so disconnected from my friends?? i felt lonely. whenever they posted pictures during high school or during gathering, i realized i'm not in the pictures at all. when we gather together, i felt the closeness but when we're far apart, i felt i'm forgotten. maybe the main reason is i dont draw near to any cliques during high school. if you remembered, i'm always alone or with cynthia during recess. pictures of high school flashed through my mind. and i see myself walking down the hallway of the school by myself. except when with cynthia. i see my friends get closer to each other as they grow older. but i'm still at this level where i feel i dont have friends around me.

after from 5, i went to NS and halfway during the training i went to TAR college. most of my friends who decided to take form 6 grew closer to each other and that's how they are so close now. i went astray. =(

college friends have their own cliques and since we dont stay near to each other, we dont go out together. meet in college, talk some funny stuff and off we went home. there's no heart-to-heart talk with my college friends.

when i'm alone without anyone beside me, i felt lonely but i know God is the one accompanying me all the time. his spirit gives me peace. i talk to him constantly. i hope that my relationship with Him will be stronger before anything else.

I appreciate all of my friends close friends or not so close friends. I remembered all our memories in school. Serena, I'm not forgetful! You people made a difference in my life. All of you came into my life and you will always stay in my heart. stay quietly! dont move around! XD

anyway, I wish all my friends ALL THE BEST IN YOUR FUTURE UNDERTAKINGS! I LOVE ALL OF YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART and NO ONE IS FORGOTTEN!

p/s: i'm blaming no one in this post. seriously. just a post from my heart.