nothing much.

been really busy with work throughout this few weeks. didn't get to online too. by the end of the day will be freaking tired. and i felt relieved to be busy with work so that i will not be too attached to onlining cos once i start onlining i will stick to the computer the whole freaking day like what i'm doing now.

My mum has really bad rashes started since last month i think because she only told me when i go back for raya break. haihz. the rashes did not subside even after taking lots and lots of medicine and applied all types of cream given from the doctor. She even took steroids but the rashes came back after the steroid finished. Oh Lord, keep her healthy in Your arms Lord. You are able to do mighty miracles. I pray that Lord you will take away the rashes Lord. Give me the patience to wait upon You Lord.

Clement has gone for the mission trip this morning. and here i am doing nothing. The mission trip will be back tomorrow evening. my convocation rehearsals is tomorrow and i dont even know where is the place. hmm... i'll be driving there tomorrow. hope i dont get lost.

i feel useless this few days. i'm in really bad mood. everyday will be scolding here and there, beh syok at everything he do. haihz. what is wrong with me??? i dont wanna be like that. i dont wanna fill my heart with anger all the time. where is the love that is in me? i take evrything that he do for granted.

i think i'm the shittest girlfriend on earth. i feel he really dont deserve me. i suck! he's so kind, loving and all but i am the problematic one. =( i didn't do anything for his birthday this year just because we had a wedding ceremony and dinner to attend on his birthday. and also because we celebrated his birthday earlier when in png with his family. ya. i know. excuses! i wanna make it up to him by going somewhere but because his birthday already passed, i feel like it has no meaning anymore. haihz. i still feel bad because i nvr get anything for him but he got me a necklace on his birthday. what is this la weh? haihz....... so disappointed with myself. i'm sorry baby!

currently working part time in coway. office job really doesn't suit me at all. it's so boring i can die! is not i dont appreciate. i thank God for giving me job with a good pay. but i dont wanna involve myself in finance. i wanna go for networking/IT. Lord, teach me to follow your ways.