argh!

what is really wrong with me? i cant seem to know what i want in this life.. i'm really lost. everyone is chasing their dreams and here i am not knowing what do i want for my future.

maybe i dont wanna grow up. i want to go back to schooling days when my talents shine. when i do not need to worry about anything and just be myself. sports, maths, add maths, dance! argh! being a teacher really is not close to being back in school cos your duties are totally different!

despite all the laughters, inside me, i'm struggling to find my path.

i'm drowned by reality!

Hello Taiping!

I'm back in Taiping to start on a new journey of discovering myself, my abilities, my expertise and most important of all, DO I LIKE THE JOB? yeah, a new job in tpg. To leave behind Clement is really very difficult. been stuck with him for like 3 years plus and he brought joy and happiness to my life. I thought i wouldn't cry but as i watched him standing outside the bus, waiting for me to leave, i cried.

How long will i be in Taiping? my father guessed that i can only last for 6 months. haha. Let's see how long i will last in Taiping.

Hello Taiping!

On Monday, 19th December 2011, Clement took me out for a date. Actually, this is our official first date (i know.. we have been together for so long) so were actually nervous bout it. haha. so, i fetched him to work and came back to his place. at 4.30pm i went back to his office. i waited in the car til he's after work. when he came down, i drove into the compound of Wisma MCA to pick him up and he walked towards me with a bouquet of flower. =) yeah, i know.. so sweeetttt. =) i was happily smiling. the roses were beautiful. we then drove to Thrishna at the Hotel Istana for our dinner. It's an Indian Fine Dining restaurant. Actually i dont know if it's fine dining or not but it looked fine dining to me. The food was superb and we ate really a lot til we couldn't breathe. the dessert, gulab jamoon is nice too! Took some pictures, and then we headed to The Curve for a movie. Mission Impossible. On the way there, we thought we will have to wait 1 hour for 10pm movie. But when we got there at 9.10, there's the 9.30pm Mission Impossible so we took it! wheeee...

I really enjoyed myself throughout the day. really. after tomorrow, i wont be seeing him like everyday anymore. He will be in KL and i'll be in tpg with my new job. Thank you for everything you have done pi.. I really appreciate all of them. From cooking for me with delicious cooking, to taking care of me the whole time, you're always by my side, making me happy, accompany me wherever i go, care bout my feelings and you have been a gentleman the whole time. you're the best!

Last but not least, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and dont simply think k. I will not cheat on you eventhough we're far apart. MUACKSSS.

Christmas Party

Last Friday, 16th December, was an Evangelistic Christmas Party at a friend's house in Puchong. The party was great, the food is awesome and the people. There were 30+ people who went for the party. Clement baked 4 trays of lasagne, baked potatoes, salad. He sacrificed his time and energy to bake the food. We went for price checking on wednesday at various hypermarkets such as NSK and Tesco. and on Thursday we started preparing and baked 2 trays of lasagne. we baked til 2am on thursday. On Friday, Clement took half day on Friday to continue baking another 2 trays of lasagne and the potatoes. The lasagne was super awesome. This is my first time trying lasagne actually. You are the best CHEF pi... without you, i'll starve of hunger.. =)

the yellow thing is the lasagne skin. First step, white sauce then place the lasagne skin.

next, the pasta sauce.

next, mozarella cheese.

place another lasagne skin, and do the step all over again for another time.

tadaaaa....

 Calvin and Clement

 some of the people who went for the party.

the catering food.

now, the real reason i wanted to blog is to tell you all i almost died after the party. but since i just posted this post, it means that i'm still alive. hahhaha. after the party ended, i drove home cos Clement has been really tired. he was sitting beside and me and was very sleepy. when i went downhill (so, you can guess that i'm quite fast), suddenly there's a bump! so i braked suddenly and i suddenly lose control of the car. the car skidded but my hands were on the steering the whole time trying to get the car to be on the road. right and left i go when Clement nervously telling me to let go of my brake. immediately i did as what he told and have control of the car and got back to my lane. i really thank God because there's no other car around me and i did not crash into a tree. Clement straight away was awake the whole time after that til we reach home. we were still trying to digest the incident when we got home. thinking back of the incident is really scary and it happened so fast. our life could have been gone in just a few seconds. Thank God Clement and I are safe.

my 21st birthday!

i'm officially 21! well, i purposely removed my birthday notification in facebook just to see as how many people remember me. i'm actually quite sad to see the number of people who wished me. anyway, i'm not blaming anyone but myself. I never got close with anyone.

anyway, clement's plan of bringing me somewhere and surprising me failed because my mum and my sister came down kl to celebrate with me. so, on 12th Dec, we practically do nothing. went for lunch at Nandos then walk around cos my sister want to shop for a shoe. she bought me a pair of sandals. =) then at night, we went to sakae sushi and we ALMOST activate the fire extinguisher. hhahaha. really funny. =)

at the end of the day, i'm not really satisfied cos we got stuck in jam and just walk around kl. boring.

i'm only satisfied on 13th dec when we went to Bukit Tinggi. It's a beautiful place indeed. cool air, beautiful scenery. i will post some pics in facebook later on. i love it. =)

when we came back from bukit tinggi, we were stuck in a flash flood in wangsa maju! the whole situation was really scary. scared that the water will go in the exhaust pipe and the car will be stuck there.

the best experience on my 21st birthday! hahahaha..

counting down. 16 more days to go before i start my new job in Taiping. Hope it's gonna be good!

new quote: "You will NEVER FAIL if you try, You will only FAIL if you DIDN'T try!"

I'm gonna miss you so badly!!!

this morning was our first choir presentation at a church in Sunway, Cornerstone Doulos. practice started since May 2011. and we'll be performing everywhere throughout the month of December. especially the weekends.

I will turn 21 this month. never expect much. my mum and sister will come down to kl to celebrate with me. and then i'll be back to tpg on 22nd Dec to start on my new job. huhu... another stage in life.

Will i be able to find You back in my life?

went for CG outing yest to Tanjung Sepat. It was ok. went to the mushroom farm, the keropok factory and a coffee shop. had dinner and came back. one day trip.

i am a negative person. yes. I AM!