wat the heck!!!!

10th February 2010,

at night i helped my mum prepare the ingredients for making lobak. i started to help her at 10pm. did the carrot. while im trying to skin the sengkuang, i accidentally skin my finger with the peeler. luckily it nvr bleed. did the onion and i cried while doing that, the garlic, the serai, and the kunyit. all those wrapping the lobak ended at 4 plus a.m. man... i'm tired...

while i'm cutting the serai, i asked my mum..
" you dont mind my bf is like that?",
and she answer.. " sure i mind",
and i was so freaking shocked and i asked.. "why?",
then she say.. " he's HANDICAP and next time you have children how la? scared later like him",
and i was so angry and said... " why you say him HANDICAP wan? pity him la.. why you so bad wan say him like that?" i was like so freaking terasa she say him that.
and my mum reply... " not really HANDICAP la.. PARTIALLY HANDICAP.. at least he still can work and not cannot work at all.." gosh.........................
den i say.. "so what if i have a bf who's like that and has a good heart and wont leave me? better than having a guy who's perfectly fine and leaves the wife at last.."
my mum said to me.. " you dont tell him what i've told you"
i said to her, " hanna"

seriously... is it really a big deal he's like that? he has a beautiful heart i know for sure.. i know God will heal him.. one day.. there's a reason why God brought him to this life and to have this problem with him.. why not other member of his family and must be him?? there's a reason for it and only God knows.. May God heal him according to His Will.. I cant wait to see a miracle from You, Lord.. Please work in his life.. Please heal him Lord...

let me tell you someting.. DONT look down on ppl who have their weakness in some way.. because God will be using them to do mighty works.. they have their speciality in their own way.. look at the positive side and let God handle the negative side.. =)

I LoVE YoU for who You are to me! <3