A Little Too Active

2012-01-15T01:20:00.002+08:00

My ambition : PILOT!

I wanna chase my dream. I've been hoping for an opening from any airline in Malaysia for a cadet pilot position.

and today, I found it in AirAsia's page. I'm too excited but at the same time, i'm really hoping for an interview.

oh, please oh please, oh pleaseee...

2012-01-15T00:58:00.002+08:00

i've been called for air asia interview for a cabin crew position at sepang but i'm working that day. how? should i go or should i not?

New Year! 2012!

2012-01-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

Went penang on 31st December 2011 to celebrate new year in png. actually to see my dearest. he went to png on thurday but because i need to work, i gotta go only on saturday.

It's a geat new year for me. went to queensbay, bought baskin robins since it's 31st! and also i bought two little kites (RM4 each). went for buffet dinner at Tao. went for watch night service in EPCC, Clement's sister's church. the service was great.

We only got to play the kite on Monday. went to the fishing beach like 2pm near gold coast resort to play kite. it was crazy. the sun was burning but i kept on standing under the shade. but clement keep on stand under the sun. now kena sunburn. our kite fell into the sea and after that, it was useless. it was imbalance after that. during the evening, we went to queensbay to fly kite again. and after few tries to fly our little kites, we gave up because the kite "sot sot tei" adi. we ended up buying a bigger kite. Rm17 with lots of tail. hehe.. we really had fun! Thank you, pi! muacks.

Clement's bus to kl was 5.20pm just now. i miss him. =(

argh!

2011-12-25T13:55:00.001+08:00

what is really wrong with me? i cant seem to know what i want in this life.. i'm really lost. everyone is chasing their dreams and here i am not knowing what do i want for my future.

maybe i dont wanna grow up. i want to go back to schooling days when my talents shine. when i do not need to worry about anything and just be myself. sports, maths, add maths, dance! argh! being a teacher really is not close to being back in school cos your duties are totally different!

despite all the laughters, inside me, i'm struggling to find my path.

i'm drowned by reality!

Hello Taiping!

2011-12-22T21:16:00.001+08:00

I'm back in Taiping to start on a new journey of discovering myself, my abilities, my expertise and most important of all, DO I LIKE THE JOB? yeah, a new job in tpg. To leave behind Clement is really very difficult. been stuck with him for like 3 years plus and he brought joy and happiness to my life. I thought i wouldn't cry but as i watched him standing outside the bus, waiting for me to leave, i cried.

How long will i be in Taiping? my father guessed that i can only last for 6 months. haha. Let's see how long i will last in Taiping.

Hello Taiping!

2011-12-21T10:07:00.001+08:00

On Monday, 19th December 2011, Clement took me out for a date. Actually, this is our official first date (i know.. we have been together for so long) so were actually nervous bout it. haha. so, i fetched him to work and came back to his place. at 4.30pm i went back to his office. i waited in the car til he's after work. when he came down, i drove into the compound of Wisma MCA to pick him up and he walked towards me with a bouquet of flower. =) yeah, i know.. so sweeetttt. =) i was happily smiling. the roses were beautiful. we then drove to Thrishna at the Hotel Istana for our dinner. It's an Indian Fine Dining restaurant. Actually i dont know if it's fine dining or not but it looked fine dining to me. The food was superb and we ate really a lot til we couldn't breathe. the dessert, gulab jamoon is nice too! Took some pictures, and then we headed to The Curve for a movie. Mission Impossible. On the way there, we thought we will have to wait 1 hour for 10pm movie. But when we got there at 9.10, there's the 9.30pm Mission Impossible so we took it! wheeee...

I really enjoyed myself throughout the day. really. after tomorrow, i wont be seeing him like everyday anymore. He will be in KL and i'll be in tpg with my new job. Thank you for everything you have done pi.. I really appreciate all of them. From cooking for me with delicious cooking, to taking care of me the whole time, you're always by my side, making me happy, accompany me wherever i go, care bout my feelings and you have been a gentleman the whole time. you're the best!

Last but not least, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART and dont simply think k. I will not cheat on you eventhough we're far apart. MUACKSSS.

Christmas Party

2011-12-21T09:17:00.001+08:00

Last Friday, 16th December, was an Evangelistic Christmas Party at a friend's house in Puchong. The party was great, the food is awesome and the people. There were 30+ people who went for the party. Clement baked 4 trays of lasagne, baked potatoes, salad. He sacrificed his time and energy to bake the food. We went for price checking on wednesday at various hypermarkets such as NSK and Tesco. and on Thursday we started preparing and baked 2 trays of lasagne. we baked til 2am on thursday. On Friday, Clement took half day on Friday to continue baking another 2 trays of lasagne and the potatoes. The lasagne was super awesome. This is my first time trying lasagne actually. You are the best CHEF pi... without you, i'll starve of hunger.. =)

the yellow thing is the lasagne skin. First step, white sauce then place the lasagne skin.

next, the pasta sauce.

next, mozarella cheese.

place another lasagne skin, and do the step all over again for another time.

tadaaaa....

Calvin and Clement

some of the people who went for the party.

the catering food.

now, the real reason i wanted to blog is to tell you all i almost died after the party. but since i just posted this post, it means that i'm still alive. hahhaha. after the party ended, i drove home cos Clement has been really tired. he was sitting beside and me and was very sleepy. when i went downhill (so, you can guess that i'm quite fast), suddenly there's a bump! so i braked suddenly and i suddenly lose control of the car. the car skidded but my hands were on the steering the whole time trying to get the car to be on the road. right and left i go when Clement nervously telling me to let go of my brake. immediately i did as what he told and have control of the car and got back to my lane. i really thank God because there's no other car around me and i did not crash into a tree. Clement straight away was awake the whole time after that til we reach home. we were still trying to digest the incident when we got home. thinking back of the incident is really scary and it happened so fast. our life could have been gone in just a few seconds. Thank God Clement and I are safe.

my 21st birthday!

2011-12-15T16:11:00.003+08:00

i'm officially 21! well, i purposely removed my birthday notification in facebook just to see as how many people remember me. i'm actually quite sad to see the number of people who wished me. anyway, i'm not blaming anyone but myself. I never got close with anyone.

anyway, clement's plan of bringing me somewhere and surprising me failed because my mum and my sister came down kl to celebrate with me. so, on 12th Dec, we practically do nothing. went for lunch at Nandos then walk around cos my sister want to shop for a shoe. she bought me a pair of sandals. =) then at night, we went to sakae sushi and we ALMOST activate the fire extinguisher. hhahaha. really funny. =)

at the end of the day, i'm not really satisfied cos we got stuck in jam and just walk around kl. boring.

i'm only satisfied on 13th dec when we went to Bukit Tinggi. It's a beautiful place indeed. cool air, beautiful scenery. i will post some pics in facebook later on. i love it. =)

when we came back from bukit tinggi, we were stuck in a flash flood in wangsa maju! the whole situation was really scary. scared that the water will go in the exhaust pipe and the car will be stuck there.

the best experience on my 21st birthday! hahahaha..

2011-12-06T16:07:00.004+08:00

counting down. 16 more days to go before i start my new job in Taiping. Hope it's gonna be good!

new quote: "You will NEVER FAIL if you try, You will only FAIL if you DIDN'T try!"

I'm gonna miss you so badly!!!

2011-12-04T15:26:00.002+08:00

this morning was our first choir presentation at a church in Sunway, Cornerstone Doulos. practice started since May 2011. and we'll be performing everywhere throughout the month of December. especially the weekends.

I will turn 21 this month. never expect much. my mum and sister will come down to kl to celebrate with me. and then i'll be back to tpg on 22nd Dec to start on my new job. huhu... another stage in life.

Will i be able to find You back in my life?

2011-12-04T15:24:00.002+08:00

went for CG outing yest to Tanjung Sepat. It was ok. went to the mushroom farm, the keropok factory and a coffee shop. had dinner and came back. one day trip.

2011-12-04T15:23:00.001+08:00

i am a negative person. yes. I AM!

2011-11-23T22:22:00.002+08:00

what will you do when life hits you hard? be positive, climb the mountain or sit at the bottom of the mountain, grumbling bout how the problem is too hard to overcome?

there is no one in this whole wide world who doesnt have a problem. haihz......................................

unimaginable experience.

2011-11-10T10:58:00.004+08:00

last tuesday night, 8/11/2011, something really scary happened. nvr thought that it will happen to us.

we were on our way back in clement's car when sudddenly a guy, looking tired, walked towards us with his arms stretched wide open. he was waving his wrist as if asking us to stop for him. we panicked. i kept asking clement to "Just GO! Just GO!" which i dont even know what i mean at that time, to go forward and bang that guy or to reverse or to go forward and avoid hitting that guy.

Clement made a quick stop, look back and reversed the car, using a different route. we were scared that guy might rob us. lots of thoughts ran thru our mind when we playback the incident in our mind. there might be another guy who will stand at the back of our car, blocking our way out.

However, we reached home safely. I dont wanna have this experience again cos it's scary.

2011-11-05T14:08:00.002+08:00

next year, january, i'll be going back to tpg. found a job there. time to move out from kl. really sucky place to be in. i hate everything about kl.

my sister found a room in jalan loke yew. a really rundown malay flat. but i think it's ok. better than sleeping by the roadside. she found the room exactly on 31st oct...

went to i-city on 2nd nov with my mum and 1st sister. it's beautiful and i'm glad they enjoyed it. =)

cant wait to quit the job in coway. the HR sucks in paying my salary.

homeless

2011-10-28T23:00:00.001+08:00

i'm gonna be homeless in 3 days time if i nvr get to find another place soon. =(

hello roadside!

2011-10-21T23:59:00.002+08:00

blogging in taiping! went for dental checkup today and they discharged me! woohoo.. they even left me a gift. so, i would encourage all of you to go for braces because they will leave you with a gift when you're finally done. =)

besides that, got a new CPU! my mum decided to buy because the booting up is slow and guess what, RAM is only 64 mb. hahahah. so outdated. and now, we're updated already! from xp to windows 7 already. the cpu costs rm800. is it cheap? i think it's ok.

super hungry now. chao!

2011-10-16T15:55:00.003+08:00

last few days, maybe monday or tuesday, my house in taiping got broken in again! they took the lorry tyre rim that we used to tie sherrie. my mum was sleeping in the house without locking the door and our gate was not locked since many decades ago. Thank God that my mum didn't wake up to see what is happening outside because if she were to do that, i think the people would have hurt her. Sherrie didn't bark because i think they had done something to her. The neighbour's dog was barking but my mum thought maybe there were stray dogs passing by.

I was really worried leaving my mum alone in taiping since the incident. And i decided to go back taiping at least to be there with her. suddenly, career and money is not important for me. doing any job in taiping will be fine as long as i am there with her.

My 1st sister is working on board ship most of the time and wont be able to be with my mum, my 2nd sister will be in KL or Ipoh all the time, and my brother doesn't want to go back taiping. so, I felt the burden and i am the most free to go back taiping.

Things are going slow right now for me. nothing is happening. I just need a direction.

uncertain.

2011-10-10T20:39:00.003+08:00

currently undergoing a phase in my life where big and important decisions need to be made. i seriously got no idea what to do with my future. still stuck with the boring part time office job!

new stuffs...

2011-10-04T21:50:00.008+08:00

today i bought a few new stuffs to add to my wardrobe. ahhaha..

bought a new handbag which both of us think is cute,

a new pair of shoes cos my working shoe has opened up it's crocodile mouth,

and a pair of shorts which i've been longing so that i could wear my long singlets with it.

it's been weeks i wanted to get all these but the price are a little bit expensive. this time is cheaper because it's PM brand. hahahhha.

you know what is PM brand? ask me if you want to know. haha.

this shoe only cost rm25

the shorts, RM10,

and the handbag, RM20!

the singlet(all the way from london) , free ( given by Clement's cousin sis, Linda)

*the whole set in the pic is all new!

nothing much.

2011-09-16T10:55:00.002+08:00

been really busy with work throughout this few weeks. didn't get to online too. by the end of the day will be freaking tired. and i felt relieved to be busy with work so that i will not be too attached to onlining cos once i start onlining i will stick to the computer the whole freaking day like what i'm doing now.

My mum has really bad rashes started since last month i think because she only told me when i go back for raya break. haihz. the rashes did not subside even after taking lots and lots of medicine and applied all types of cream given from the doctor. She even took steroids but the rashes came back after the steroid finished. Oh Lord, keep her healthy in Your arms Lord. You are able to do mighty miracles. I pray that Lord you will take away the rashes Lord. Give me the patience to wait upon You Lord.

Clement has gone for the mission trip this morning. and here i am doing nothing. The mission trip will be back tomorrow evening. my convocation rehearsals is tomorrow and i dont even know where is the place. hmm... i'll be driving there tomorrow. hope i dont get lost.

i feel useless this few days. i'm in really bad mood. everyday will be scolding here and there, beh syok at everything he do. haihz. what is wrong with me??? i dont wanna be like that. i dont wanna fill my heart with anger all the time. where is the love that is in me? i take evrything that he do for granted.

i think i'm the shittest girlfriend on earth. i feel he really dont deserve me. i suck! he's so kind, loving and all but i am the problematic one. =( i didn't do anything for his birthday this year just because we had a wedding ceremony and dinner to attend on his birthday. and also because we celebrated his birthday earlier when in png with his family. ya. i know. excuses! i wanna make it up to him by going somewhere but because his birthday already passed, i feel like it has no meaning anymore. haihz. i still feel bad because i nvr get anything for him but he got me a necklace on his birthday. what is this la weh? haihz....... so disappointed with myself. i'm sorry baby!

currently working part time in coway. office job really doesn't suit me at all. it's so boring i can die! is not i dont appreciate. i thank God for giving me job with a good pay. but i dont wanna involve myself in finance. i wanna go for networking/IT. Lord, teach me to follow your ways.

this two weeks.

2011-08-24T20:34:00.004+08:00

been really busy since i started my work last monday. work from 9 to 6 everyday and when i got home, i'm dead tired. nvr online anymore since i started my work including on weekends. well, is it a good thing or a bad thing? i think it's a good thing. at least i nvr spend my time stalking people. hahaha. my first job is part time data entry at coway and the second job is part time telephonist. being a telephonist is real boring and tiring. so i decided to quit the telephonist job and instead take the data entry and work for 5 days starting from next month. guess what? i met my sister's friend in coway! so shocking! what a small world. didn't expect to meet anyone but God placed me there. =) i really thank God for everything i'm going thru. and i pray and hope that i'll go through everyday of my life with Him.

my guitar practice is getting better. though i cant play a song yet but i am able to switch between chords quite ok. again, by God's grace. =)

we bought ourselves 2 pairs of goggles. because clement said that my swimming will be better if we had goggles. true enough, sunday night we went swimming with the goggles that we bought in the evening, i can swim my FROG!!!! not perfect but stil need more practice. i really thank God for Clement who taught me without complainin. for how long?i've forgotten. =) i wanna try learn free style now. Thank God!

p/s: will be going back tpg this friday night. will reach 1 or 2 in the morning. cant wait! =)

part time, guitar,formal shirt.

2011-08-15T22:00:00.003+08:00

i have so much to blog!

firstly, i would like to thank God for providing me with a part time job. i started one of my part time job today. as data entry again at woongjin coway. =) it was just ok. hope things will get better tomorrow.

secondly, i'm learning guitar! woohoo. suddenly got the urge to learn guitar. haha. i want to play at least one instrument. and i'm starting with guitar! i got my guitar lesson thru youtube. so far, so good! =) May the good Lord help me. =)

thirdly, i bought a formal long sleeve shirt today because my part time job requires me to wear formal to work. i have two part time actually. and both also is data entry job and need me to wear formal. i got only one piece of formal shirt in my wardrobe. how miserable is that? haha. my second part time starts on wed.

I pray that God's will will be done in my life. i wish to surrender everything to him because only He has the plan for my life.

A verse hit me real hard last night. it goes like this, "Just as you trusted the Lord to save you, trust him too for each day's problems. Live in vital union with him. Let your roots grown down into Him and draw nourishment from Him."

p/s: my gum swollen! =( it's getting painful.

clashing dates.

2011-08-12T10:30:00.002+08:00

just a moment ago, i told clement my convocation date and guessed what? he asked me "how to go mission trip then?" hahahahhaha...

my convocation falls on the 18th sept and the raptai is on 17th sept. it's a must go for both of the days.

the mission trip falls on 16th - 17th sept. so how?

i think i cant go for the mission trip adi. =(

i can swim! wuhooooooo

2011-08-12T10:12:00.002+08:00

Yest went for swimming and i finally can swim frog style adi. actually can swim that style the day before yest but to confirm, i tried again yest. =)

Thanks to my beloved darling who taught me without complaining. =)

it's difficult at first but slowly i get the hang of it. in the beginning i was scared of swallowing water but slowly, i pull it through. thank God for helping me too!

really thank you thank you thank you pi. i've been wanting to be able to swim for so freaking long and finally i am able.

by the way, i am going for a mission trip on 16 Sept to Raub. will be sharing with the orang asli there. looking forward to it! i need God's inspiration on my testimony. i cant seem to find any that will relate to the orang asli. Lord, help me!

v100 finally healthy again.

2011-08-09T19:59:00.005+08:00

Clement's v100 is finally working again!

He took it for a fix on Saturday, 6th August 2011 after 3 months dumping the bike by the side. haha.. the last time his motor broke down was May 2nd.

his bike's maintenance is really not cheap. we'll just have to see how things go. hope it wont break down anytime soon.

each time repair will cost him about 170+ to almost 200.

i hope the best for the bike.

and, i found a part time job 2day! praise the Lord!

done with my documents.

2011-08-05T10:50:00.002+08:00

tuesday, i went to maju junction in kl to do all my documents. i didnt plan to do police report at first. but if i didnt do, i will have to pay rm 210 for my IC because this is my 2nd time losing it. went dang wangi police station (the same police station when i do my first police report) and i still need to pay rm 40 for my IC. paid rm 20 for license and rm 12 for my ATM card.

i thank GOD because i'm able to complete everything that i need to do in just a day. and this time, my pic is nicer.. hahhaha..

freaking sad because i need to pay to redo my documents. what's the point of kena kompaun? is not that i want it to lost also. people are just irresponsible nowadays. what happen to the value we learned when we were little kids? we always learnt that, "if you found a wallet, we must bring to the police station." hahahahha.. well, i cant do anything bout that person who took my wallet. but i pray that he/she has a sense of heart.

you see, since my IC is in there with my address on it, why cant they just post the wallet to me with all my documents inside? haihz.. anyway, it's over. there's no point throwing my frustration here because at the end of the day, there is a reason for everything.

wallet lost again.

2011-08-05T09:52:00.003+08:00

wah... i need to blog this out of me.. can only blog bout it now because i've been sticking in the house since wednesday and there's no internet connection.

well well, i've lost my wallet again! huhuhu.. i'm super super super sad.. lost it on 1st August! yeah.. what a luck. i have rm40 in it and other important documents as usual. we came back from bazar ramadhan, i came down from the motor and left my wallet on the seat. clement saw it, took it and put halfway in his pocket. so we walked to the poolside and eat there. after done eating, we went up to my house at 8pm. and we're so sleepy we fall asleep til 12am. hahaha.. so, when we woke up, i open the door to sent him home. as he went down to his motor, i realized, i nvr see my wallet anywhere. so i start searching for my wallet in the room. i found it's not there and i called him. he came up again and help me search for it but couldnt find it anywhere.

went down to the poolside and search. den went to the guardhouse, and around there, i found all my movie tickets that i kept in my wallet. that point i knew my wallet has fallen off somewhere. i started to get angry, miserable and all the negative feelings you can think about because this is my 2nd time i've lost my wallet.

so, i finally accepted the fact that it's lost! sent clement home. and i went for a bath.

whenever i bathe when i'm angry or not in a good mood, reasons and advise will go through my head, giving me hope and i will feel relieved after my bath. that day, this sentence came to my mind, "take it as helping a person. maybe he's super desperate and in need of money. take it as a blessing to others. maybe you can go to the police station and maybe the person returned to the police."

i ended my day by saying sorry for being mad.

i'm sorry baby. forgive me. =(

my first christmas present from him and i've lost it. supeeerrrrr sadddddddddd............

Transformers & Hanna

2011-08-01T16:52:00.003+08:00

i wanted to write some comment since i watched transformers 3 but i didnt have the time and i keep forgetting.

anyway, my comment is that transformers getting boring. every scene is expected. and each time, trying to save the girl is freaking too common already. the girl is like "zho teng" only. anyway, i'm disappointed with the movie. it doesnt make me feel excited.

if there's transformers 4, i dont wanna watch. cos i know what is gonna happen.

last week friday, we went to watch Hanna. it was nice. the story line is special. but people were wondering what's the story all about. towards the end only they reveal the real story. hahaha. dont really have much comment but it was ok.

anyway, nowadays i dont feel like watching movie. it doesnt make me excited anymore. haha.

next plan?

2011-08-01T10:09:00.002+08:00

hmm.. what's my next plan? "pray and ask God about it". this sentence has been prompting me since i finished my studies.

i dont think i want to continue my studies. right now, i'm waiting to take my CCNA examination. i hope the college will not neglect this matter. i hope they take it seriously. i have been cheated by them so many times already.

bout the first work i posted previously, last saturday is my last day. haha.. i know i was supposed to stay there for 2 weeks. but you see, it's so freaking far and i cant afford to cycle there everyday. even my sister dont feel like working there so she talked with the producer. the producer is fine with it, thus me and my sister both quit the job. hahahha.. nvm, i'll get another job.

pray pray pray!!

First work.

2011-07-28T20:29:00.004+08:00

today, my first job but will last for only two weeks and not related to my studies. working as a production assistant in reservoir production company.

as you all know, clement is using his bro's motor so he has to give his bro his car.. i got no transport so i ended up cycled from Kuchai Lama to the production company in Merchant Square which is super near to the Damansara toll. If i took Clement's car, he will have to give back the motor to the bro and then he will have to take public transport go. haihz.. so i decided to cycle to my workplace.

started cycling at 9.15 i guess and reached office at 10.40am. wah... super freaking tired because my stamina ll drained out and it's super far. the bicycle gear also dont know why not working. killing me when i go uphill.

the office here is super nice. they do it really ike a house. maybe because they have to stay up in office til late night that's why they make it as comfortable as possible. got kitchen, then got people cook for lunch.. =)

my work today overall is to edit videos captured during casting. first time using apple computer. luckily i can catch fast. thank God for everything I've gone through today.

diploma level done!

2011-07-27T15:09:00.003+08:00

I'M FINALLY DONE WITH MY DIPLOMA!

MY FINAL PROJECT IS COMPLETELY DONE!

Presentation just finish 20 minutes before this. my presentation starts from 2.16 and ended at 2.45pm. we were glad we finished it in time because the time given to us only 30 mins for each group. so, i'm glad i'm finally done. and right now, i feel a bit sad having to leave this college. i'm starting to miss some of the lecturers. it is true when people say the moment you lose something, then only you want to appreciate it.

results will be out 2 weeks later. well, i hope that it will be good. i hope that this final project result will be good so that it will not pull down my CGPA. well, everything is in the hands of GOD. He definitely has guided me throughout the completion of this final project when i feel there is no more hope, no more time for the project to be completed. but GOD provided me a way. friday we were supposed to pass up our documentation but he gave us an extension to monday so we have extra time to do the documentation. PRAISE GOD!

i'm done i'm done i'm done! wuuhooo.. now, wait for the convo on sept!

laugh laugh laugh.

2011-07-25T16:10:00.003+08:00

last saturday, met up with my friends from Taiping. they went Sunway Lagoon but i couldnt jopin them. can only join them for dinner.

the best part is when Cynthia, Serena, Khai Ming, Shirleen and me went out middle of the night to SS2. super funny weh.. we talked and laughed til 3am. imagine that. Clement sudah tidur at home cos tak tahan adi. the laugh and talk some more nvr control wan. we laughed superbly loud. hahha.. laugh til we cry.. hahha.. syiok man.

food poisoning again.

2011-07-25T15:09:00.006+08:00

woke up this morning and dont feel well. stomach bloated. full of air but cannot burp it out. in fact, i woke up few times in the middle of the night cos it's so uncomfortable.

it's final project documentation submission today and i dont like feeling unwell.

dont feel like standing at all. when reach clement's workplace, on the way up, stop at level 8, ran to the toilet and vomitted. the food from last night also vomitted out.

after that went to ampang park mall to bind the documentation. and while waiting for the shop to open, i straight away vomitted on the floor. i feel so bad for the people to clean my vomit. but pity me also. so many people walk pass me and no one even stop and help me or pass me tissues. =(

went to the toilet and clean up. my shirt, and jacket also kena. geli.

haihz. hate food poisoning.

clement fetch me from ampang park and then on the way to college, he ta pau lunch. i didnt want to eat cos scared i'll vomit again. after he ta pau, he walked to the mamak and get for me 100plus and polo sweets. i didnt expect him to do that for me.. was surprised. =)

thanks babe. i didnt believe that it will help me in the beginning but after drinking it and taking the sweets, i feel better. =)

thank you thank you thank you a billion times! muacks.

done with my final exam! and ALL THE BEST, FRIENDS!

2011-07-22T17:28:00.005+08:00

it's been 1 week without any update on my blog. everyday, i feel like blogging. but because i have no internet at my new place and also because i was so busy with my final exam and final project..

i'm finally done with my final exam for my 6th Semester. time really passed super fast. i always complained bout studying in that shitty college but during the last day of my exam that is on wednesday, 20th July 2011, i realized i've made many precious friends. friends that i nvr imagined i'll be close with them. for very long time, the 'miss' feeling has been buried. but somehow, nearing to the last day i'll be in that college, the 'miss' feeling suddenly revived.

the college is really shit, no denying. but the friends.... wow! we teased each other, as usual, i always SS and they played along with me.. we laughed together, learned together, encouraged each other, fight together, shout together, and last but not least.. loved together..

i missed you dear friends..

and I wish the best for all of you! May you overcome every challenges that may come in your way to pursue your dreams. dont just lay back and do nothing because you will not learn anything when you are in your comfort zone. instead, go out to the real world and gain some experiences! one more thing, you can always disturb me. i'll welcome you. =)

Take care and I LOVE all of you!

moved to my new place.

2011-07-11T10:33:00.004+08:00

finally i moved in to my new place on Saturday, 9th July 2011. my new condo is Kuchai Brem Park.

sunday morning, clement cycled to my place and we went for a swim. still trying hard to learn swimming the real way. first swim since i moved there.

after lunch at mcd, we cycled back to his place to get his car. it's really sweet though. =)

since the bicycle doesn't have the back seat, i sat in front and held the steering so that i wouldnt fall. he sat behind and did the cycling. =) it's really fun! too bad, no pic, no video.. nvm. we can do it again. =)

and yest night was our first dinner at my new place.. pasta again!! =) clement loved the kitchen there cos it's organized and it's stable. not like the kitchen in studio. =) we watched Fairy Tail while eating. great dinner, at a great place, watching a great anime, with my loved one. simple and sweet. =)

thanks for helping me whenever i move pi. thanks so much! love you lots!!

the price is quite cheap too. cheaper 5 dollar than my previous place. haha.. no internet, no wahing machine though. but it's ok! =)

from the balcony, i can see the studio. it's so peaceful standing at the balcony. i can see beautiful lights at night, cooling air and the sound of water from the swimming pool is so peaceful.

i love my new place. i really thank God for providing me a comfortable place to stay.

rally.

2011-07-08T10:51:00.002+08:00

the country is in chaos now because the Government is making such a big fuss on the Bersih Rally which is happening tomorrow.

right now, i got no idea where will the rally be held because i iread in the newspaper yest that Bersih couldnt get a permit to hold the rally in Stadium Merdeka. well, in my opinion, if the King, Ambiga, and PM already agreed on doing the rally at the stadium, then there should be no one saying "NO" and not giving permit to Bersih to hold the rally in Stadium Merdeka.

Clement told me yest that one group of Silat is gonna be the third line of defense during the real day.. hahahhahaha.. funny like shit. it's so stupid la.. it's just a rally to support fair election.. what's so big deal?? aiyoyo.. roads are gonna be closed, buses are stopped from coming to kl. haihz..

i hope the future of Malaysia will be changed to a better one though.

magazine

2011-07-06T13:27:00.005+08:00

i'm done with my presentation today. i need to create web site to present my points in the presentation. did it for few weeks and i'm happy with the result.

right now, i have this current assignment that i must do but i have no idea how to start at all. i need to use Macromedia Flash to create an information software. flash is difficult to understand. huhu..

on monday, i passed up my multimedia assignment that is to design a magazine cover. i ended up with two designs but i ended up chose the 1st design. haha..

this is the 1st design.

this is the 2nd design.

p/s: please tell me i didnt make the wrong choice.

cycling.

2011-07-05T15:10:00.003+08:00

Last Sunday, 2nd July 2011, we decided to go cycling. but too bad the bicycle cannot carry 2 people.

first time we cycle in kl. we took turns cycling. but just for a while. i ended up running up and wore my shoes and go for a jog rather than cycle. =)

seeing him cycle makes me so happy. =)

forgot to take some pics.. cos we very long nvr take pics adi. so, nvr thought of taking pics also. haha. it's ok.. there willl be some other time. =)

Cameron trip!

2011-07-01T10:09:00.002+08:00

blogging has become quite boring for me already. haihz. need to really find my free time, sit in front of the computer and blog. these few days, i actually have no time to really sit down. my class starts in the morning till evening, 6.30pm. and i've started a part time job. so, it's quite tiring actually. yest, i couldn't believe that i felt tired. these few days keep on tired. i was not like that previously. my energy level will last throughout the day till i go to bed. hmm..

anyway, just wanna blog about my experience in cameron last weekend, 24th & 25th June 2011. actually, there's a couple getting married in my cg and they're going up cameron for their wedding photoshoot. and they invited us to go along too.

it's a good experience with my cg members. besides relaxing our mind with the fresh air there, we get to improve the bonds between us. and get to know them better too. this is the first time i went on a trip with them. we went up on sat, 24th. david siew fetched us at 12.30pm, then we go fetch joshua foong then we're off to cameron. it took us 6 hours to reach there cos we stop like 4 times along the way up. hahha. when we reach there, we're all tired up especially the driver. the drive up there is excruciating! the motion sickness me and clement experienced just sucks away our life.

overall, it's great and AWESOME! i really thank God for giving me this chance to mix around with them and thus take away the awkwardness i felt for these 6months. but the really annoying this is the car sick that we felt. it's suffering! i dont think i want to go up again unless i'm the one driving.

when we reached kl, we met up our other cg members who did not went for the trip and went for a durian buffet in SS2. it's been super long i've not eaten durian. but before we dug in, i didn't want to have it basically because it's super expensive.. rm30 for 2 person. but my dear clement has been craving for it for very very long time already. so, what's the worth of rm30 when you are able to see him enjoy the things that he loves. =)

i enjoyed the durian feast. well, we kept calling for 'hong ha' durian that is the udang merah durian. it's super orange in colour and i dont know why they call it 'hong ha'. hahhaha..

after that, went to KAYU, a mamak restaurant and Joshua went into the LADIES toilet to do his business. haha.. he overlooked it i guess. well, luckily there's no other girl in the toilet when he went in and came out. hahaha..

after that we went home. super tired. but i guess that's the fun part of it. knowing that i did not spend my whole day facing computer and onlining is AWESOME!~

and then i....... crashed on the bed!!~~

snatch thieves.

2011-06-24T10:18:00.004+08:00

last two days, 22nd June 2011, after lunch time.

i came across something that i really hope i nvr see cos it definitely scare the hell out of me.

SNATCH THIEVES!

stupid idiotic people who has no life, tried to snatch an indian lady's handbag.

it happened when clement fetched me to Haw Par. my class is supposed to be at MBF but he thought that it's at HAW PAR. so, he u-turned towards HAW PAR. and when he wants to turn in to a junction, two "smart" fellows on the motor tried to snatch the lady's handbag. their plan failed maybe because they know that we will chase them. they sped off, the indian lady shouted at us to go after them, and we did. tried really hard to see the plat number but they're plat number is really hard to see. that's why i say they are smart. cos they already plan earlier and made the plat number shiny so that people will not be able to take down their plat number.

they sped off really fast and we couldn't catch up with them. BASTARDS!

starting from when i saw the incident and throughout the chasing scene, my heart was beating real hard and i really could not believe that i would see such thing. normally i would read it in the newspaper. this time, it's REAL and SCARY!

i really dont hope something like this would happen to me. starting from that day, clement is always worried bout me and he would try his best not to let me walk around.

to the girls out there, watch out your handbag. be smart! dont fall into the hands of these uneducated people. if can, dont even carry a handbag. if you insist on carryin your handbag, dont carry it facing the traffic. carry it on the other side. and always look around and watch out!

I am freaked out!

something to ponder

2011-06-23T10:02:00.002+08:00

This is something to ponder on and definitely wake our senses.

relationship...

2011-06-17T14:38:00.002+08:00

There is a sense of awkwardness filling this place right now. because both are not talkin to each other. since 10am just now.. i just feel like i wanna run away.. but where can i run to? i'm starting to wonder if i am meant for you and you are meant for me. ppl might say that i'm not appreciating. but you dont know what is happening. so, just shut your mouth.

2011-06-17T11:30:00.000+08:00

i hate constipation! i've been dealing with it my whole freaking life! argh!

UNIFI!

2011-06-17T09:23:00.002+08:00

right now, i'm trying out UNIFI in clement's workplace.. muahahha.. it was just installed yesterday. =)

my comments? hmm.. it's super fast.. but at the beginning it was quite slow.. maybe because my laptop was just starting up and warming up to process the request.. =)

but now, it's like very fast.. =)

but i'm wondering.. what do they wanna do with the high speed internet installed in clement's office? cos he is just working, loading email, check website and facebook a little. there's no need for UNIFI to be installed actually.. hahahha.. but since his boss wanna install ma just play with it only lor. hahaha..

time to go try more of the high speed internet... XD

have a good day everyone!

i know why are there jams!!!

2011-06-16T09:34:00.002+08:00

do you know why are there jams in kl??

i'll tell you why.. as clement rides motor, i'll always look around.. and after 2 years and 2 months riding around in kl only i realized the nnumber of passengers in the each car stuck in jam.. haha..

one car has only the maximum of 2 people and majority of the cars has only one person in it! imagine how many ppl living in kl, going to work ever single day, around the same time?

yeah.. you know what am i talking about..

this is crazy.. carpool la weh... i'm sure you dont wanna stuck in the jam right?

so, carpool! say NO to jams!

high school vs the real world

2011-06-13T14:39:00.004+08:00

it's really sad to see how different is it to be in high school and to be out in the world.. in high school you can voice out whatever you want, joke around, be crazy with your classmates/schoolmates, and in fact, they are the one who shaped us today. without everything that happened in high school, i am not who i am today. I would be the boring, quiet girl; imagine me not burping loudly, imagine me being not SS, imagine me not an athlete, and imagine me of who i am not. (i know this confuse you but read over and over again to und, will you?) and in high school, you can voice out if you are not happy with certain things or whatsoever. but in the real world, there is no such thing cos you wouldn't want to be hurting people.

and in the real world where you meet other people other than the people you know, you gotta like somehow be more formal, change the way you talk to suit them, control yourself from acting crazy, and because of this, there's like no topic to talk with them. when i asked questions, people would be staring at me and i can see that they are thinking "what kind of question is that and why she keep on asking so many questions?"

it's really sad to see that i cant adapt myself although i've tried my best. although ppl say to just be yourself, but somehow, it doesn't work in the real world you see.. because ppl are getting more matured and here i am still playing here and there although i'm 21. and this is the real me! to play here and there, to joke around, it's me! i've lost the ability. =(

i'm back!

2011-06-10T11:39:00.002+08:00

it's been one month i stopped blogging.

last month been going in and out of kl..

last week, 4th and 5th spend like rm57 on 9 outfits! FOS at ikano is having sale. bought 3 similar skirts for rm23(i'll give it to my 2 sisters), 3 tops for rm23, and another 3tops for rm11! cheap.. very cheap. i'll stop spending for now.. till maybe next year? haha.. i have too much clothes adi.. the tops and skirt will be my new year clothes? hahahha..

getting down with the flu now. haihz.. hate it. my nose is blocked! and i really feel breathless because of this.

right now, i'm in college. supposed to meet up with my group mates to complete our project which dues on july. as usual, they're not here. haihz. this is stupid. the final project is given on january and it's june now. yet, 0% completed! bravo bravo~~ working with guys is just plain stupid cos they're not serious at all!

gone forever.

2011-05-12T21:59:00.000+08:00

thanks for reaffirming me that what i felt the other day is so true!

to disappear is the best thing for me now.

Happy Mother's Day!

2011-05-08T11:35:00.005+08:00

Happy Mother's Day, Mummy.

I'm sorry i didn't get anything for you year after year.

Thank you for your love each and every moment of my life. Your love is the greatest and purest.

My mummy is so cute everytime when she ter-fall asleep. while watching tv halfway, she can fall asleep. when washing plates halfway, she can fall asleep.

She's the one doing all the house chores all these years. She raised me up for 21 years now and her patience to me is obviously seen.

During school times, she will make milo for us to drink before we go to school. and sometimes, we didn't appreciate it. we forgot to drink our milk and wasted her effort.

I used to complain so much about her. about her cleanliness, and blame her for certain reasons. but did she ever do that to me? no! she still goes out to buy food for me although i'm a big girl now and i can drive out myself to eat. she still cooks for me even if i throw tantrums. SHE STILL LOVE ME SO and her LOVE WILL NEVER CHANGE.

she makes sure that i have enough to eat while she didn't have proper meals. and me, on the other hand, wants to get out of the house and taiping as soon as i can last time. but after seeing the world, i'm like a prodigal son who just wants to be home with my family.

she's the one supporting me for every decision i make. when i wanted to quit TAR college, just some talk with her and she will accept it. although now and then she complains about me quitting TAR college and scared that the same thing will happen to my brother.

she's the one who taught me how to be independent by asking me to cycle to school everyday. i used to complain and hate cycling to school. but after looking back i realized that i've grown so much just from cycling to school compared to some kids whose parents drive them to school.

taking pics with friends and boyfriends is such an easy thing to do. but why is it that in our photo album there's so little of MUMMY? why? i got no idea why.

i know i didn't appreciate my mum last time and i realized how precious and how old she's getting after i went kl to study.

i'm sorry for all the wrongdoings i've done to you, for the rude words i've thrown to you, for being so miserable whenever you ask me to do things, for my whole life so disappointing to you.

MUMMY, you deserve the best from me!

my mum and my sister.

my mum and me.

I LOVE YOU MUMMY!

stophungernow.org

2011-05-06T10:44:00.015+08:00

Thursday, 5th May 2011,

i went to be a volunteer in meal packaging event. they call it meal packaging party. =)

it's a charity work to package dehydrated, high protein, and highly nutritious meals to be used in crisis situations and in school feeding programs for schools and orphanages in developing countries around the world.

It started at 2.30pm and supposed to end at 5pm. but we finished it at around 3.40pm. we do it in an assembly line way. we packed 10000 packets of meals and it only took us 1 hour plus. i feel good after the event because i know that a kid will not die of hunger because i help to feed them! =)

here are the pics :

we need to have the cap on and sanitize our hands before packaging.

this is the hall where we packed the meals. it's actually much bigger than this. i only get to capture half of the hall.

this is my station table. there are 6 tables same like this. each table will have 6 ppl working.

the white packets beside the blue box is the vitamins packed into like chilli sauce packet. in the blue box is rice. underneath the funnel is the packet where all the food will be put into.

the orangy thing is the dried vegetable like carrot and etc and beside it is soy!

The process goes like this :

1. one vitamin packet will be put into a packet.

2. the packet goes under the funnel.

3. one scoop of dried vege.

4. one cup of soy.

5. one cup of rice.

-----> it then goes to the next station. look below.

this station is where quality control will be done.

the packet must weigh in between 350 and 360g. if it's more than 360g, some rice will be scooped out and if it's less than 350g, some rice will be added into the packet.

after that, the package will be sealed with the blue thing in the pic.

------> next stage is counting the packets to be put into a box that holds 36 packets.

each rectangles in this pic will hold 2 packets. so after filling up the rectangles, total will be 36 packets. all the 36 will be packed into 1 box.

every 1000 packets packaged into boxes, they will ring the gong and we will shout and cheer.

it's a lot of fun~!

i hope to do this more!

more pics below:

me in the process.

this sticker is given to us after the party ended.

i stick it on my shirt!! weeee...~~

after that, we were given the chance to try out the food that we just packaged. it was okay.

at least kids survive by eating them.

I'm thankful to God for sending these people to help hungry kids and prevent death.

You can help the hungry kids by visiting www.stophungernow.org

You can make a difference!

Lonely.

2011-05-06T09:25:00.002+08:00

yest i poured out all the sad things in my heart to him again.

although i have 600+ friends in facebook, however, i positively guarantee that none, i say NONE who i am close with. NONE! NONE i can turn to. NO ONE actually remember that i exist!

i'm starting to think that even if i am not in this world, NO ONE would even care!

cos i'm just a pain in the neck. people hate me.

i'm not any popular girls out there who gets all the world's attention, i'm nobody.

(no, i'm not jealous)

NO ONE remembers me in their daily lives.

i guess this is how it is going to be. things are going to be worse as time passes.

break down again?? oh noooo..

2011-05-05T18:36:00.003+08:00

Clement's v100 break down again! when he just wanted to go to work this morning.

but luckily it broke down not far from my house.

anyway, my point is it broke down again! haihz..

no hope on the bike adi. =(

Michael Kwa in action.

2011-05-05T18:21:00.004+08:00

last saturday, 30th May 2011,

Clement's friend, Michael Kwa, came all the way from klang to midvalley and called us out.

He stayed overnight at clement's place cos we want to take him to hot spring on sunday.

He's so not use to bathing hot water til we need to pull him down the water just to get him bathing. hahhaa.. when clement and me are done, he's still not in the pool yet. he only able to just sit while we both swimming away. hahhaa..

Clement even ambush him and drag him down the water at the end. hahaha..

we poured hot water on him when we went up to have a bath. haha. freaking cannot tahan man.

i had fun!

Clement's 2nd hand car.

2011-05-05T18:12:00.000+08:00

last week tuesday, 26th April 2011,

clement finally got his car. his bro drove down from png cos clement need to come back kl for work. he went back tpg for his grandma's baptism on sunday but couldn't get the car the weekend itself so his bro volunteered to drive down.

it's proton iswara, auto, year 2002, 2nd hand car.

i forgot to take pic of the car so when i do, i will post the pic up. =)

shut my mouth.

2011-05-04T14:07:00.003+08:00

1st things 1st.

i think i should just shut my mouth up and also watch what i say. i think i've been hurting a lot people lately.

seriously dont want people to get hurt on what i say.

but i just mean to play and joke around. not to hurt people's feelings. =(

batt can't charge.

2011-05-03T16:07:00.003+08:00

yest when i came back home, i switched on my laptop and because the batt is quite low, it hibernated.

the next thing, i plugged the adapter in to charge it, and didn't watch whether the battery is charging or not.

when i point my mouse to the batt, it says "not charging".

wah liao... please la.. i hope there wont be a big problem on my batt. please..

gonna bring it to acer tomorrow. hope nothing serious.

p/s : my laptop fell on the floor from a table before! how great is that? my mum and my sister always call me butter fingers. and i think they are correct!

you know, sometimes i think to myself, why i study IT but i dont know anything? i dont know how to repair if there is any problem arises. i dont know what is the problem, i dont know how to troubleshoot it. does this thing happen only to me or do you feel the same thing?

watch the way you act.

2011-05-03T15:49:00.003+08:00

right.. a new boring post again.

i'm completely done with my final exam for 5th sem!

at last i can release the negative energy in me... struggle so hard to study. this one week is the worst week of my life! i had really bad mood which i think i made his life so miserable having me as his gf. fell sick on thursday and made my mood worse. i'm not as active as i always use to be, not talkative, throwing my temper, scolding here and there and also blaming him for everything that went wrong!

what is wrong with me? haihz.

i'm really sorry pi. really, truly, didnt mean to hurt you so badly.

and, i wanna say thank you for helping me to study, asking me questions on any subjects, helping me go through and woke up early in the morning just to help me.

you are sooo good to me but I am so bad to you.. =(

I LOVE YOU, PI.

wow!!

2011-04-29T14:36:00.004+08:00

today was business organization exam! i'm the 2nd last to finish my exam. this sem, i finish my exam later than the rest. got no idea why. but last time i completed my finals in less than an hour! hahhaa.. i'm not showing off!

anyway, today, a lecturer whom i know him by face only, talked to me in the lift after my exam finished. He asked, "how was your exam?"

I said, "hmmm.. ok la.. not bad.."

He said, "i heard from the lecturers that you are intelligent.. smart.."

I said, "oh... thank you.."*smiling away*

while he was walking out of the lift, he said, "keep up your good work."

I said, "thank you, sir."

I was happy because he is the first one who came up to me and tell me straightforward although he didn't know me, and i dont even know him.

when i was crossing the road, I was thinking to myself, "actually, I am not smart. it's the lecturers who made me got interested in the subjects. when i am interested in any subjects, I'll fall in love and go all out for the subject."

I dont look highly on myself because any subjects that requires more reading, I could not handle it. I'm not hardworking enough to read and I am not a bookworm. I dont love reading! I could not remember the facts. I just need the lecturer to make me understand. not give me the notes and ask me to read myself.

any praise given to me, I would just like to thank God. It's is His wisdom that helps me. And his blessings. He is the One who helped me.

Please dont put high hopes on me. please. i dont want to feel stress thinking i have to reach expectations. Just let me do my stuff, and dont worry! =)

p/s : I hope my results for this sem is good.

finals.

2011-04-26T11:40:00.002+08:00

this week is finals!! done with my malaysian studies exam on monday!!

at last.. i can let go of malaysian studies. stupid like shit. hate history, hate malaysian studies and will always hate them.

went back tpg last week with cynthia and came back with her on sunday also.

after finals time to search for jobs!!! but i only got 3 weeks of sem break.

still, i'm not gonna shake my legs doing nothing at home..

don't give up!

2011-04-20T15:16:00.007+08:00

"I hated the world. I hated hamstrings. I hated it all. I felt so bitter that I was injured again. I told myself I had to finish. I kept hopping round. Then, with 100 metres to go, I felt a hand on my shoulder. It was my old man."

modesty.

2011-04-20T09:35:00.002+08:00

yest, i watched this video. and after watching it, i knew the truth..

when a guy sees a girl dressed up showing off parts of her body, they tend to think "bad things" about the girl.. freaking disappointed when i knew the truth. all men are the same. but, at the same time i'm trying my best to und why do guys tend to think "bad things" on the girl.

i'm trying my best not to blame on their natural lust towards girls.

that's why it is better for girls to dress up appropriately so that the guys will not sin in their mind. you are helping the guys not to sin in his mind. guess what, you are also protecting yourself from the evil desires of men.

so, my request is this to you girls out there! dress appropriately! please. if you have a bf and he looks at other girls with some "bad thoughts" going thru his mind, will you be sad? so, why not start with yourself first?

no matter how much a guy loves you, it is their natural tendency to think of the "bad things" when they set their eyes upon other girls who dress up inappropriately. don't blame the guys alright?

Your Wonders.

2011-04-19T09:43:00.002+08:00

A song that i made months before:

Your Wonders are seen everywhere I go,

The beauty of the Skies and the Seas.

Your Wonders are seen everywhere I go,

You created the Sun, the Moon and the Stars.

I sing praises to worship You,

I shout Your Holy Name.

Jesus, Jesus, Jesus,

You are Wonderful.

the beautiful moon..

2011-04-19T09:09:00.006+08:00

yest after dinner, we were on the way back to clement's house and tell you what.. the moon is really beautiful and shining so brightly..

we went to the playground, sat on the swing, enjoy the beauty of the moon and of course chit- chatting away.

look at it!! it's pouring out its shine!!

"hmm.. let me have a bite so that i know how the moon tastes like"

"i think i better spit it out and make peace with the moon"

i'm glad we found a peaceful place for us to relax our mind, enjoy the peaceful surrounding and appreciate God's wonders. or can i say we found "ah mo bong (in Taiping)" in KL!

sitting in the playground and on the swing is just wonderful. the gush of the wind just complements the peacefulness of the place. =)

cook cook cook!

2011-04-18T12:03:00.004+08:00

yest was cooking day!!

woke up in the morning cos wanna go pasar pagi buy chicken, eggs, vege, etc etc. i dont like going to wet market cos everything is so wettt... eeee.. geli la. the puddle of water everywhere, the smell.. i'm still getting use to the wet market. so forgive me if i complain.. haha.. didnt had anything for breakfast. came back from market and immediately prepare for lunch.

this is for lunch! chicken cook with worchestershire sauce, scrambled egg, baked potatoes, butter cauliflower with carrot and sausage and meatballs fried with lemon grass, onion and cili padi. =)

delicious.

not forgetting, Harry Potter, The Deathly Hallows part 1 for our entertainment while we eat. =)

abc soup with rice for dinner! nyum nyum.

home cooked soup after sooo long.

everyone hates me...

2011-04-18T11:30:00.005+08:00

why do i feel everyone hates me??

is it because of the way i acted?? if so, how do i act then??

seriously, it's sad to see people not replying your comments, deleting your comments or even ignoring you because you know for sure, they HATE YOU!

since I'm with Clement, i realized people start hating me. one by one.. but i do not know for sure.. it's just my feelings tell me that.

i realized, i do not know how to mix around with new people anymore since i'm with clement. somehow, there will be silence, awkwardness, and etc.

i'm not snobbish.. it's just that day and night, i'm always seeing him, talking with him and maybe that's why i've got nothing to talk with anyone anymore and i don't know how to communicate with other people adi.

i'm trying my best to get back to the track where i mix around happily without feeling awkward.

so, please, appreciate my effort, and DON'T HATE ME!

2011-04-15T23:47:00.003+08:00

i have no more friends who i can turn to anymore.

it's all because of me again!!!

behind all the laughter.

2011-04-15T23:09:00.002+08:00

behind all the laughters and the happy faces i've given, there is much of sorrow when i'm hit.

anything that i've read or heard that had made an impact on how i feel will keep playing in my mind after that. nothing can distract me. and from there, i will be upset.

thinking bout how much people dislike you, knowing that i'm the cause of ruined friendships and relationships, knowing that i'm hopeless in wanting people to like me and knowing that they want you to be out from their life for a while until things settled down.

crying silently when there's no one watching, with the words playing repeatedly in my head, cutting through my heart over and over again.

i have no more confidence.

some interesting pics...

2011-04-12T16:11:00.003+08:00

Look at these pics:

taken in aust. actually i was just trying to show how cute is he. haha. look at the chubby-ness. and the lips..

too cute to resist! XD

ninja pork burger in midvalley. a little bit exp. but first time trying.

was shocked to see a pork burger in Malaysia!!! hahhaa.

this pic was taken yest! look at our teeth! haha.. the ugly side of us. XD

clement suddenly got so crazy over chocolate wanting to eat non-stop cos his house suddenly got stocked up with chocolates.

let me tell you, he is worse than girls who love chocolates.

anyway, i stopped him from eating too much. dont want him to get heaty. he heaty, jatuh sakit and i will susah hati.

can anyone guess what sherrie is having?

this pic was taken last month after the 5th day of my granpa's funeral.

come and guess guess guess.

she had the other half the day before!

this pic was taken last week! the day after we came back from aust! look at the amount of flavouring/ajinomoto/etc after clearing off the chips! it's from twisties - chipster.

sour cream and onion.

geli.. i dont think i wanna buy chipster anymore.

brief AUSTRALIA trip...

2011-04-10T01:16:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, 30th march 2011, head to AUSTRALIA!!! wheeee... had an awesome time there. definitely gain new experiences. from cloudless sky to dry and burning heat from the sun to dry skin and to weird tasting water. hahhaa.. from clean place to friendly people to not crowded place. too lazy to post pics in facebook basically because we took like over 1000 pics! beg me if you want to see the pics.. =)

profile pic.

2011-04-10T01:04:00.004+08:00

how would you feel if a girl who took pic with your boyfriend ended up putting the pic as her profile pic?? and in the pic,the girl is holding your bf's arm!!!

tell me how would you feel?? grrrr..

what happen for the past few weeks.

2011-03-27T16:15:00.005+08:00

i had a great weekend. the first weekend that i had throughout all these years when i feel my time was used to the max!

Saturday, 26th March 2011, went to parkson at 11am plus to hunt for clement's formal shoes. walk walk walk around since last few days and still could not find the suitable one until today. then at 2.30pm, we went to Nando's in Mid Valley to meet up with Jennifer, Txin, Yan Ming, and Shea Yuin. i was supposed to be there at 2.30 to surprise Jenni but i ended up came later than her. hahhahaha.. well, you know me.. hhaa.. we enjoyed ourselves. at 5.30pm, clement and me said bye-bye to our friends and attend church. after service, at 8pm, we were invited to watch a movie. my senior, Goh Ann Gie invited me. and i was very blessed and thankful cos she invited me to watch a movie. the movie was awesome! very very meaningful. If any of you are interested, try searching in Youtube or in dvd stores for the movie titled "To Save A Life".

Sunday, 27th March 2011, went for an awareness run with Jenni, Serena and Txin at UPM. Clement tagged along too. because he's my transport. hahha.. the run and my day with them was awesome. we took lots of crazy pics and definitely run til all our strength was used up. from running, to taking pics and lastly to picking locks! we went Mines City after that. had great time laughing away, chit chatting about gays and others. =)

exotic foods.

2011-03-24T17:12:00.003+08:00

Last friday, 18th March 2011, we went to a food stall near Times Square for dinner. the place is calming. you can eat under a big tree. beautiful. when we sat down, clement went to the place where they had the big pots and found out that it's actually an exotic food stall. the food served there are a little bit exotic. there's curry wild boar, crocodile, turtle, monitor lizard and others. i'm not daring enough to try all that kind of food. so luckily i had a mind set of wild boar=pork. without the mind set, i wont be eating anything. haha. not only that. we ordered herbal soup in a coconut shell. there are some pics. the food is nice though. only 16dollar.

p/s : I will be going soon. bye bye. =)

Congrats. Boy.

2011-03-23T13:42:00.002+08:00

today, my brother received his SPM result. I just called him not long ago and asked him bout his results. he told me he got 1A, 4C and 4Fail. A for his Maths! haha. so proud of him. =)

Fail for Account, Perdagangan, Arts and Sejarah. all lame and boring subjects. haha.

it's ok that he did not get to score all As. He's not really into studying also and because he studied in alor setar without his family member. so, could not blame him. anyway, he wants to do chef in KDU Penang. i hope he will not make the wrong choice like me last time and quit halfway.

I Wish You All The Best In Your Future, Boy!

p/s : dont judge my brother or I'll KILL You! dont look down on him!

BOSS with pondan promoters

2011-03-22T21:21:00.002+08:00

for so many times i walk in KLCC, there was a booth by BOSS, man perfume i think. can you imagine the promoters were PONDANS??? disgusting! eeewww.. why would the famous BOSS perfume hire PONDANS as their sales promoter???

i cant imagine man. each time i walk pass the booth, i feel very very disgusted! the same thoughts will run through my mind. haihz.

disappointed!

received my cheque!

2011-03-22T21:17:00.003+08:00

yesh!!! i got my pay from Carlsberg adi. it was last week, on thursday, 17 March 2011.

I was so delighted when they finally msged me to go bangsar village to pick up my cheque. however, i asked Mark to pick it up for me because I thought I had class for the whole day. but see see on thursday itself only i know one of the class was cancelled. however, i nvr go and Mark get the cheque for me.

I'm so HAPPY! after 3 months plus only i am able to get paid for the job!

a day of walking and taking pics around

2011-03-21T15:46:00.004+08:00

yest was awesome! He is awesome!

He want to bring me somewhere but dont wanna tell me where.

so, while we're on our way there, we stop by the side for so many times just to take pics. =) didn't realize it was so beautiful until yest!

until we rode pass KLCC only he told me that he wanted to bring me to the fountain in front of KLCC and also walk in the KLCC park. when i heard that, i was like sweat. haha. sweat because bring me all the way to town just to see a fountain and concrete building. sweat because it's unexpected. i thought he will bring me somewhere green. =) i didn't say i dont like it. i like that he took the initiative to bring me somewhere. no matter where, i will still like it because he's with me.

anyway, i enjoy my day to the fullest! he cooked dinner too!

oyster chicken!

i will upload more pics tonight.

assignments.

2011-03-21T09:13:00.002+08:00

i'm left with one week! so many assignments to go! last minute la har! around 4 assignments more? huhu!!!! stupid malaysian studies! hate that subject! i tried to love it. but my heart choose some other subjects! haha.

never regret

2011-03-21T09:12:00.002+08:00

I was shocked to see this because basically it's true?

how fragile is life?

2011-03-18T09:58:00.004+08:00

I came back from taiping on wednesday. Went back because my grandpa passed away last saturday, 12 March 2011. I didnt really spend time with my grandpa when he was still alive mainly because i dont speak hokkien and when i was young, my perception is that i dont know what to talk with him. I didnt get to see how wonderful is he. and i regretted it. both of my grandparents are now gone. and i am here, down on earth regretting and crying because i didnt take the initiative to talk to them when they were still alive.

life is fragile. do everything you can, appreciate everyone that God has placed in your life, and when God brings you home, you will see His glory.

when we pass away, everything in our life will be gone. money, car, house and all the things of the world will be gone! then you will be reflecting, did you have good sons and daughters who took care of you when you are growing old or did they threw you to the old folks?, did you live your life to the fullest or did you lead your life miserably?, did you leave this world with people hating you?, did you live your temporary life here on earth appreciating everything that God has blessed you with or did you complain on everything?

i want to start appreciating especially my family, my boyfriend, my friends and other people who walked into my life even for just a while. i want to take care of my mum. she is growing old without me realizing it. i've neglected her for so long. when will i take the step to take care of her? when she couldn't recognised me anymore? she has suffered long enough just to see me happy. i'm not moving to other country so that i can take care of her and spend time with her. a mother longs for their sons and daughters to spend time with them when they are not able to carry on through this world by themselves.

we are their strength when they grow old just as they are our strength when we were young and when we walked through this bumpy road in life.

I miss both of you! =(

skateboarding.

2011-03-11T15:41:00.002+08:00

yest after class, i walked to Clement's workplace. while walking there, i will always pass thru klcc. outside klccc there's an area for skateboarders to practice their skateboarding. well, lucky enough, i saw a few of them practising.

my heart leaped watching them practise skateboarding. I want to skateboard too!!! i want real bad.. but i could not afford a skateboard. it's too expensive. =(

Home Cooked Food!

2011-03-07T16:08:00.005+08:00

Food!

popeye's! it's our 1st time eating together. not bad. i prefer kfc! haha. cos kfc uses spices. popeye's fried chic has a plain taste.

our lunch on saturday. kurma chicken and omelette.

for dinner, we ate the leftover kurma from lunch with rice.

our dinner on sunday! own fried water crest vege and the sup kambing bought near the hot spring.

I love home cooked food! Thank you for taking the trouble to cook with me. =)

something amazing

2011-03-07T15:18:00.005+08:00

yest, 6th March 2011, pi did something amazing, beyond my imagination!

when we went back studio from church service around 1.30pm, we went into the kitchen and played with the puppies. pi play with them for a while and somehow, his hand knocked the mop hanging half outside, half inside. so, definitely when you knock a mop hanging half in and half out, definitely it flew out of the window! we thought it landed on the ground floor straight away. mana tau it landed on 2nd floor's window. haihz.

we went down to the 2nd floor to see if there is anyone inside that can help us take da mop. but too bad, it's sunday! no one working.

so, i was thinking to take on the next working day but he, on the other hand, think creatively and took a pole from outside the studio. he begins to tie da rope onto the pole and made it exactly like the "catching dog or crocodile" pole.

one pole was not long enough to reach 2nd floor. so i went out and grab another long pole. he tied the 2 poles 2gether using his Scout skills and tadaaa... a double length pole was formed!

he slowly drop the pole to 2nd floor and when he got hold of the mop, i pulled the rope to tighten the grip on the mop and then he pulled the pole up together with the mop!

ahaha.. so happy we get to save the mop! no not we. but him. =)

here are pics to help you und the situation better:

tying the rope to the pole.

tying two poles together.

dropping the pole down the window.

pulling the mop up.

the HERO saves the day!

p/s : by the way, we attempted lots of trials before we were able to get the mop up. the black 2nd pole in the pic was too short, so i get another pole exactly like the first one but didn't take pic of it.. and after that only we can get the mop up.

p/s/s: i'm sorry that the pics are so dark. as you can see the sun is shining in. that's the only angle i could take. and sorry too if i made all of my readers confuse.

For me, it is amazing to see him just grab anything that he could find and made them into useful stuffs that can help him overcome a problem. That is what i call AMAZINGLY CREATIVE!

How many of us can do that? =P

start class again.

2011-03-07T09:34:00.003+08:00

class is starting today after 1 week of doing-nothing holiday! in fact, i dont even know what did i do. pfttt... wasting time got la. haihz. when will i be disciplined? pi always remind me to study study study. haha. how is that? sure i got study. =)

Yest went MBO Sri Petaling to watch I am Number Four. the movie is nice for me. but certain part he is able to convince me that the scene should not be there. haha. anyway, i love it!

anyway, i am excited for the end of the month to come! ahhhh! but before I fly, i must finish up my assignments! please jun jun! wake up wake up wake up!

til then...

Loving the People who you are STUCK with!

2011-03-05T00:33:00.004+08:00

Tonight, the Good Lord has blessed me and open my eyes to situations i'm having in life right now.

"Loving the People who you are STUCK with" is our topic for today.

Basically, if you are staying or mixing around with people who you doesn't like, whether it be their attitude, the way they talk, or anything bout the person, you just have to teach yourself to LOVE them like how Jesus loves his 12 disciples.

If any obstacle arises, or if you doesn't like the people whom you are stuck with, most people will choose to Flee or Fight. the hardest to achieve is to Forgive.

The King of the world, steps down on Earth and to the lowest of all position that is a Servant and washed The Twelve Disciple's feet! Why? Why on earth would he do that when He is The Lord? Because He loves each and everyone of his disciple although He already knew that all of them will betray him in a different way. He washed Judas' feet just like He washed all the rest and never miss him out although Judas will betray Jesus to the Pharisees moments after that.

Imagine, knowing every thought of the people who followed you day and night for years, knowing that the people will betray you but yet He loved them unconditionally and forgave each of them moments before He was caught by the Pharisees. His grace and mercy is so huge!

Let me ask you this ques:

If you are able to know what that person is thinking about you(negative ones), will you be able to forgive him like how Jesus did?

Neither can I!

That is why Jesus showed us His example for us to do the same thing to other people and to LOVE each other! That is how we forgive people who hurt us with their words, actions and thoughts.

This few days I've been talking behind people's back about people who I am facing most of the time. And being blessed by this really means a lot to me. No, it is not a coincidence but it is already planned by Him. =)

This month, I will change my perception on everyone. I will try to keep my mouth shut when i am not happy with the person and not fight back with words. I'm gonna take deep breath and forgive them in my heart. =)

Like in the Bible says:

The tongue is the most dangerous weapon. Watch what it says!

The most important thing is, To love a person, you must first be able to Forgive him.

So, start Forgiving and Feel The LOVE pouring in your HEART!

quotes.

2011-03-04T15:28:00.001+08:00

a few quote i got from facebook.

From Hiong Hseng:

Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. it's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.

From Ong Sher Lyn:

We should regret our mistakes and learn from them, but never carry them forward into the future with us.

Happy Birthday Cynthia!

2011-03-02T15:06:00.006+08:00

To my Bestest Friend :

HAPPY 21st Birthday to You, Cynthia Lee Qing Ning!

Time to grow up but I like the way you are right now.

Time to stop bullying me! =)

I miss getting crazy with you!

I miss attending your Birthday Party! XD

Too bad, you could not enjoy your 21st Birthday because

of one small little thing that attacks girls.

Anyway, I still hope you have a great time!

I Miss You!

cute purses.

2011-03-01T10:25:00.004+08:00

Someday In the month of February i bought these from a mentally and physically disabled guy selling by the pedestrian walk under the bridge. he will always be selling his stuff during lunch time. i always met him when i walked to clement's workplace. May God Bless Him!

this one will be for my mum.

this will be for my 1st sister.

and this will be for me.

cute, aren't they?

each costs RM5

and they have a strap that you can hang around your wrist.

i forgotten to bring these purses for my mum when i went to my aunt's house on 27th February.

anyway, if any of you wants to buy it, you can ask me to help to buy for you. =)

bengkak eye.

2011-03-01T10:17:00.004+08:00

Look at this!

His left eye bengkak again. The swelling started like 1 or 2 days before 27th. 27th February, after came back from my aunt's place, we went to see doctor at 11 plus pm. the doctor just ask a few questions, nvr even touch Clement and we're in the doctor's room for not even 5 mins. sweat or not? when we came out, we was like so freaking sweat. the doctor just see, ask pain or not, den just say it's like pimple on the eyelid. RM30 for everything.

Clement experienced this before like last year i think. and the previous doctor said the dust and dirty made his eye like that. well, i hope his eye get's better. I Love You, Pi.

haihz. laziness.

2011-02-28T09:22:00.002+08:00

today is 28th February 2011. the last day of the month of February and the starting of my mid term break for one week! i gotta study a lot. i'm getting a little bit lazy this semester. lot's of untouched assignments. haihz. please jun... start working! you have to! God will help you. He will if you trust Him!

right now, i'm so so so lazy til i refused to go to the toilet for morning pee pee.. hahhahaha! how is that? haihz. this lazy thing gotta get out from me!

LAZINESS! I DONT WANT YOU!

the hottest hot spring on Saturday

2011-02-28T09:12:00.002+08:00

oh gosh. i love the 1ST song playing on my playlist right now.. beautiful. the guy who played the piano is freaking talented. i guess most of you already know Kurt Schneider..

whenever he plays the piano, i have goosebumps!

btw, last saturday, on 26th of February, we went hot spring in the evening. when it's 3/4 of our journey, it started to rain cats and dogs. thank God that we didnt have to wait for very long time for the rain to stop. =) God is great.

when the rain stopped, we continue our journey. the moment we stepped into the hot spring, my feet felt like i'm in boiling water. as we walked towards the chair in the pool, we were confirmed that the water that day is hotter than the rest of the days that we went. wah.... cannot tahan.. we cant even soak for long cos the heat is just whoah!

that day, the hot spring is the hottest i've ever felt!

to all my friends: i want to bring you guys there! when can we go??? =)

Missing people.

2011-02-22T11:33:00.002+08:00

why is everyone going missing?

i just read in The Sun newspaper today and read about Mr. Ooi went missing.. He was my history teacher when i was in form 1. I didn't know it was Mr. Ooi until my friends share the post in facebook. Then i realized bout the article in the newspaper was him.

My brother too has not been answering the phone. both of his numbers are switched off. i got no idea where is he now and what is he doing as he got Computer Test to take later on. I am really very worried bout him. I've been calling since Sunday and got no answer.

God, help me Lord!! please Lord. i'm crying out for you, Lord.. I pray that Lord, these people that walked into my life who I have not heard any news from them will be found. I pray that Lord, You will put a sense in them that their family members are worried about them and wants them to come back home safely. I pray that Lord you keep them safe while people are looking for them. and i pray that Lord, you calm everyone's heart and send your angels to comfort them. i pray that Lord, you have mercy upon my brother and Mr. Ooi and protect them from head to toe. Protect them from any harm oh Lord. Help me Lord to keep my faith in you and acknowledged that You are in control of everything. Keep my brother and Mr.Ooi SAFE oh Lord!

In Jesus, Mighty Name I Pray,

Amen.

smoking and drinking is bad.

2011-02-18T12:10:00.003+08:00

what has happened to all the pretty and beautiful girls?

Before i walked into KLCC, and when i came out from KLCC, i can see pretty and beautiful girls smoke. even the stretch outside midvalley. haihz..

i'm not close minded or dropping comments on anyone, i'm just sad to see girls smoking. i know it's the 21st century.

somehow, it's just not decent for girls to be smoking. i smoked once and i knew that i could not continue living on cigarettes and decided to stop. besides, i know that my body doesnt want to accept cigarettes. that's why i threw away the habit. it's a period of time before i went for NS.

now til forever, i cant accept girls to smoke.

drinking til they drop is also another matter. drink a little is acceptable. but not acceptable when you drink til you're drunk and drinking everyday. dont you know it's harming your body? do you need all these to get excited? like ppl said, "get high"?

look back and see how much all these stuffs destroys your life. how much you depend on it to get high, to forget about your problem for the night, and so on.. all of these stuffs need MONEY in order to have them. what a waste spending your money on all these nonsense. cigarettes are just papers with leaves that finishes very fast once you light it up. do you know you're exactly burning your money when you smoke? do you know, you're exactly throwing away the liquor that you take in? drink and end up go toilet to flush everything out.

everyone has their own opinion. those who drinks and smoke definitely feels there's nothing wrong with taking in those stuffs as long as they are happy. my opinion is simple. they waste your money and definitely bad for health.

to those who has not tried all these stuffs, please dont even think of trying it. being able to smoke, drink and dont get drunk is not a proud thing.

As the matter of fact, being healthy is the only thing that you can be proud of. =)

I'm a cute little girl..

2011-02-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

2day evening, in kuchai lama, Clement went to a motor shop to see bikes..

when he went for a test drive, this shop owner asked me,

"Khui hai lei keh lam pang yao ar?"

I answered, "ahhh"

He asked " lei tei yat chai tok shu hai yat chai zhou kong?"

I answered, "khui zhou kong, ngo tok shu."

He asked, "lei kei sui?"

I answered, "yi sap yat"

He got the shock of his life and asked again.

and i tell him my age again.

He then says, "lei hou chi sap chart sap pat sui"

I just smiled and say, "baby face ma"

wakakkakakakakakkakaka..

the main point that i think he's trying to point out is that I'm too young for Clement?

The question is, Do i really look that young?

What's the use?

2011-02-17T12:07:00.002+08:00

As i walked through Suria KLCC everyday, i wondered why do ppl buy designer's clothes, handbags, watches or whatever it is. why do they want to buy it when it's so expensive??

what's the use of having all these expensive stuffs? to show off or because of the quality or because of some other reasons?

why do you want to spend your money, hundreds or even thousand just to own a lifeless thing?

is it worth? is it important to have designer's stuffs in your closet?

for me, i would save my money, and bring my mum or my family for a holiday. because she deserves it after so many years of hard work.

My beautiful Christmas Present.

2011-02-16T16:31:00.003+08:00

My Christmas Present from Clement that i took so long to upload. haha.

Valentine Story.

2011-02-16T15:46:00.004+08:00

February 14th 2011

Our Simple yet Lovely Valentine story.

had McD during lunch.

had chocolate cheese cake for dessert from Secret Recipe.

Not the best, i can say.

after clement's work, we had our claypot chicken rice for dinner and

went to playground after that.

guess what is this?

no, it's not a stick!

got the shock of our lives when we

saw a really BIG FAT WORM right in front of clement's swing.

No worries pi, I wont tell out your secret. XD

Got this today, while we were having our lunch at McD again.

There's this special man who goes around to sell cute key chains and we decided to get one.

Nice?

p/s: Dont feel bad ok? I'm happy as long as I'm with you.

Happy Valentine Sweetheart.

2011-02-14T10:23:00.007+08:00

Happy Valentine to the Most Awesome Man in the whole entire Universe.

It's our 3rd Valentine celebrating together. how time flies.

Will you be my Valentine every second, every minute, every hour, every day, every month, every year and every decade, through the rest of our life here on earth?

You are one special person who has walked into my life. You deeply cared for me, appreciated me, walked with me through my ups and downs, and made each and every day of my life so meaningful.

Will you always be by my side to play with me, to purposely pick a fight with me, to advice me, to tease me, to make me laugh with your jokes, to make me feel happy by just looking at your beauty, and to always be yourself?

Here's a Jar of Stars that contains all my feelings for you:

Sincerely from my heart. I dont need you to get me anything and dont you ever feel guilty for not getting me anything. Having You is my Precious Big Present that you have given to me.

I LOVE YOU with all of my heart.

I LOVE YOU very very much.

YOU are precious.

2011-02-13T18:00:00.001+08:00

Has the act of kissing been just a mere daily routine or does every kiss is filled with love and affection?

job and my question.

2011-02-12T11:49:00.003+08:00

i' searching very very hard for a job right now.. =(

i need a flexible part time job. haihz. life in kl is very hard.

i had a very good part time job once but i didnt appreciate it wel. i am stupid for letting the job go.

i need your suggestion.

can anyone answer my one simple question?

which transport will you choose if you stay in kl? Motor or Car? take into account that you have tight financials.